Tuesday, December 30, 2014

The End of Another Year....2014!

Many times a week I think of this blog. Mentally I write posts every time, never taking the time to actually write or post the photos I wish to post. So much has happened since the last time I posted, too.

Mario is still in living in another state, waiting for his lease to expire so he can move back to Texas. He has come to realize that the opportunities are better in Houston than they are in Kentucky. He is working, making just a bit above minimum wage, and he's decided that isn't the quality of life he wants to live. EXHALE... Hopefully, he will find his niche soon.

RJ was accepted into private school and he is loving his new atmosphere. He received an athletic scholarship for basketball, but he isn't performing at the level they thought he would. He's almost 17 and he's going through many changes. He's learning life is not always about having fun.

The youngest two started the school year in public school. I took Crystal out after the first week and CJ out the 2nd week. Homeschooling is for us. I just need to focus more on making it work better. We went on tons of educational trips in September and October, and a few in November. Right now I am focusing more on helping them set goals for the next 3 months.

As for me, I am also in school. I am working on my Associate Degree in Accounting. Also, I am having a really hard time preparing for turning the big 4-0 in March. It has nothing to do with aging. I celebrate each day I live. It is more about feeling like my life doesn't look like I thought it would look by the time I reached this age. It has me grumpy, frustrated, and frozen in time. I keep dissecting my life to see how I got where I am and trying to figure where it is I want to be. I have decided to remove as many distractions as I can from my life, starting with Facebook. I will see how long it will last, but I plan to quit Facebook for one year. I am still trying to figure out how I will find out about field trips, but I'm sure I will find a way. Either that or I will have to work on my self-control.

Once again, my plan is to devote more time to this blog. It calls my name. It's time for me to start writing again. Maybe it will ease some of this stress I feel.

Monday, September 15, 2014

The Way Things Should Be.... (The Lost Blog)

I know, I know, I know! I change my mind like I change the air filter, but I am still learning about myself and how to be the best woman and mother that I can be. Against my better judgement, I sent both of my youngest children to public school. I tried so hard to ration with myself that this was a excellent school district and they would be fine, but that was not the case.

Crystal came back home first. She lasted one week. She didn't like it. She liked being around other children, but didn't appreciate that she wasn't really allowed to play with them much. My major issue was with the front desk workers. One day I called the school to let Crystal know I was not going to make it home in time and that she needed to go home with the neighbors. I called the school and left a message to have her call me. MY PHONE DIED! I rushed to my car to plug it in and I had already missed her call. I called the school back and the receptionist had a bad attitude and informed me that Crystal tried to call me twice. I told her that I understood that, but my phone died and she needs to call me again. She had the nerve to say, "Well, I can TRY to get her to call you..." and I interrupted her and told her she WILL.

Long story short, I brought both children home and now I have peace again!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

In Hindsight...

I am one of those mothers who knew she was going to homeschool before she even knew when she was going to have children.  I was a senior in high school when I decided that I would never subject my children to the public school system. It's in my heart, embedded in my soul. I know without a doubt that it is better than cookie cutter education. But here it is 3 weeks before public school is to start and I'm seriously considering sending my children to the place I vowed I would not.  The oldest two spent a couple weeks here and there in public school, but never for long. This is not really new to me; one child went into public school in the 7th grade at age 12 and has been there ever since.I just thought that after 15 years of homeschooling, I would have this thing down to science. Nope, I don't.

I look at my oldest two boys and I think they are both amazing for different reasons. Mario is his own man.  He is an individual. He will not follow, nor will he lead. He accepts life as it is and just deals with it. He has amazing people skills, yet he is still very introverted. My biggest concern is his lack of motivation.  And then there is RJ.  He is more easily influenced by those who are around him. He is an extrovert. Because of his unique size (6'8" at age 16), he has many opportunities just handed to him. He always has. He has so much influence and doesn't even realize it. He is my progressive, positive thinking son. He gets what he wants, because he doesn't stop asking until it's his....whatever "it" may be. He also is happy with his life to the point that he doesn't complain much because he knows he usually is given what he wants. My biggest concern is his lack of motivation. Since he feels everything is given to him, he isn't hungry for anything.

Those observations have led me to reconsider what I consider to be best for the youngest boy and girl. CJ is now 11 and is all set to enter 6th grade after enrolling in public school the last 6 weeks of 5th grade. He is my toughest child to teach. He has high anxiety and shows traits of a perfectionist. He is actually almost impossible for me to teach, because he gets embarrassed even when learning a new concept that I don't expect him to know about. So, imagine my surprise when he went to 5th grade and passed all his classes with C's or better! He felt anxiety a few mornings where he would cry and beg to stay home. I would say yes, and 15 minutes later he would come back with his happy face and say he was going to go ahead to school. He is overweight and I worried about him being bullied, but he said no one ever bullied him and he always got picked first when the boys played basketball at recess. (All that playing basketball against his older brothers paid off.)  The only thing he complained about was having too much work and having to stay at school ALL DAY. He is a leader. He refuses to follow anyone and if you don't follow his rules, he just won't deal with you. He is also an introvert, but has a quirkiness that people LOVE about him. His personality is off the charts!

Deep in my heart, I feel my older sons both lack motivation, because I taught them to appreciate what they have to a fault. They lack self-motivation because they are content with their lives. I feel I have to do something different with CJ, but I don't know what that different thing is. He is rather clingy to me, so as much as I hate to say it, I think time away from me and some of the negative experiences I tried to keep my children from, may benefit him at this time. How do I get my heart to agree?

Crystal is not ready for school, period. She also entered public school the last 6 weeks of school and she was promoted to the 3rd grade. The problem is, she is nowhere near ready for too many reasons to name. She is a follower and she does not make good decisions on her own. It all kind of makes sense, because my belief is that elementary school years should be spent at home (for my children). When my children reached 11, middle school years, they were given a choice. One tried middle school for 2 weeks, hated it and didn't go back to public school until the 9th grade (for half a year). The other son went to middle school in 6th grade for about 3 months and came home after having a hard time. He decided to try again for 7th grade and has been there since. CJ is on track for entering public school. I'm sticking to my beliefs with Crystal though. I'm actually looking forward to the alone time we will have everyday. She is growing so fast.

The more I write, the better I'm feeling about this whole thing. The next time someone asks me, I will finally have an answer. CJ IS going to school. Crystal is NOT. Thanks readers for once again letting me vent :)

Business Plans

I slipped a line into the last post about finally receiving my Texas Massage License. It was a long, frustrating process, but I'm so happy that it is finally over that I will spare you the details.  Receiving my license has me at a crossroads.  

When I first found out I was moving to Texas, I was already in the process of researching how to transition from my mobile massage business to becoming a public speaker advocating the benefits of childhood massage.  I had great ideas given to me by a stream of individuals who either were into public speaking, or knew of people who were public speakers. Somehow I got to Texas and I froze. My confidence simply left me. There were so many uncertainties and I just could not seem to motivate myself to follow the plan I had for myself. Actually receiving the license has given me a partial boost. I began to put in applications for a job in massage therapy, but my heart is not in it. How can I agree to be paid as low as $20 per hour when I know I can make a minimum of $40 an hour if I was in business for myself?  I keep telling myself it would be a good start as I build clientele, but it just does not sit right with me.  I have been here before. I graduated from school and immediately started my own business. I started from only having 5 loyal clients to building a reputable mobile massage business that was my sole source of income. I know I can do it again, but really I want to change my focus.  I would love to do speaking engagements and workshops promoting therapeutic massage for tweens and teens. I also would like to have an office that would just be for that demographic.  I know I can do it, and I cannot figure out what is holding me back. Maybe sharing this with you will motivate me to stop dreaming and to start making the necessary moves. 

Thank you for allowing me to vent :)

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Vegas Trip Update

RJ had a ball in Vegas! It was also his first time flying in an airplane and it was quite scary at first, he said.  His coach said he looked like he was going to be sick.  A few days before he left, he began complaining of a sore back and he also had some swelling in his hip. Inspired by the arrival of my long-awaited for Texas Massage License, I did what I had been trained to do.  I dug out the Kinesio tape and I taped him up! Oh, and I sent him with a bottle of pain reliever, hoping he wouldn't really need it.



He said it really helped. He asked me was it the Placebo Effect. I laughed and told him not to question the why as long as it was doing it's job. 

His team lost the first game, won the next five games, and then lost in the Elite 8.  I was a crazy woman all over Twitter trying to see what the scores were! Next year I will definitely be there! I was able to send him off with $160 donated to him by two of my friends. THAT was a blessing! He even had money left over when he came home.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Headed To Vegas!

I'm so excited for my son! He gets to go to Vegas before I do. His AAU basketball team is traveling there to compete in the Fab 48, a national basketball tournament.  Unfortunately, I do not have the money needed to send him so I created a GoFundMe account. It gives family and friends an opportunity to support his dream of playing in a national tournament and increasing his chances to be seen by Division I coaches.

I sure wish I could go, but since I can't, I'm going to send him off as comfortably as I can!







Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Another Year, Another Post!

It has been over a year since I last posted.  I just read the last post, so I will pick up from there...

In the last post, I mentioned we were taking a trip to Houston, Texas.  That trip was a life-changer for us.  We now live just southwest of Houston in Sugar Land. We fell in love with Sugar Land and Houston during our visit in February of 2012.  We made our big move in July of 2013.  Oh, what a wonderful testimony I have about the whole process.  Everything happened so smoothly that there was no doubt we were meant to make the move.


Mario will be celebrating his 19th birthday in exactly 3 weeks. He is currently working at Lowe's although he is will be quitting soon. My son is headed to Bowling Green, Kentucky to share an apartment with my nephew, who just finished his freshman year in college.  I am excited for both of them. A blog specific to Mario's journey and his feelings about his education path will be written soon.

RJ is now 16 and completing his fourth year in public school.  He loves the high school he attends in Sugar Land.  He is now 6'8" and he lost 40 lbs of baby fat. We are quickly learning how ruthless the basketball culture is here. He is in the process of getting his learner's permit.

Here is another BIG CHANGE...

As of April 4th of this year, I enrolled CJ and Crystal in the public elementary school.  It was a hard decision to make, and even though they will be homeschooling again next school year, I am glad things happened the way they did.  We were homeschooling and even found a local group, but they children didn't know many neighborhood children.  They both wanted to go to school and I was struggling financially and emotionally so a friend coaxed me into enrolling my children in school with only 6 weeks of school left.  It was hard on them academically, but socially, they love it!  They got a chance to meet children in the neighborhood and now they have friends to ride their bikes with.  They both are excited about homeschooling again though.  I have raised free thinkers so traditional school just doesn't fit them at this point in their lives.