Business Plans

I slipped a line into the last post about finally receiving my Texas Massage License. It was a long, frustrating process, but I'm so happy that it is finally over that I will spare you the details.  Receiving my license has me at a crossroads.  

When I first found out I was moving to Texas, I was already in the process of researching how to transition from my mobile massage business to becoming a public speaker advocating the benefits of childhood massage.  I had great ideas given to me by a stream of individuals who either were into public speaking, or knew of people who were public speakers. Somehow I got to Texas and I froze. My confidence simply left me. There were so many uncertainties and I just could not seem to motivate myself to follow the plan I had for myself. Actually receiving the license has given me a partial boost. I began to put in applications for a job in massage therapy, but my heart is not in it. How can I agree to be paid as low as $20 per hour when I know I can make a minimum of $40 an hour if I was in business for myself?  I keep telling myself it would be a good start as I build clientele, but it just does not sit right with me.  I have been here before. I graduated from school and immediately started my own business. I started from only having 5 loyal clients to building a reputable mobile massage business that was my sole source of income. I know I can do it again, but really I want to change my focus.  I would love to do speaking engagements and workshops promoting therapeutic massage for tweens and teens. I also would like to have an office that would just be for that demographic.  I know I can do it, and I cannot figure out what is holding me back. Maybe sharing this with you will motivate me to stop dreaming and to start making the necessary moves. 

Thank you for allowing me to vent :)